Dear reality, Your parallel fantasy is my creation. 

Born and raised in a family from Bangkok's suburban with Thai Buddhism and Hinduism rites.At a young age, my mom sent me to a Catholic Private school (popular for the urban middle class) But less than 10% of students in the school were Christian, most of them were Thai-Chinese and muslims.These different ideologies and beliefs made culture a confusing topic in my childhood, but also allow me to see the world from diverse perspectives. 

Although I grew up near the end of the cold war, but I didn’t know anything about it until I attended high school. Mainstream media was controlled by government. Most of the informations was one-sided dimensional, such as a pride of Nationality, Religion (Buddhism) and monarchism coated by the patriotic history written during WW2 along with school uniform and student haircut to standardize the ideal of good students. 

Reality is that, the children of my generation is actually growing up in a world where the foundation is laid uponby the military government under war time circumstances. This means, nobody should stand out from the “norm”or else you will be frowned upon by the government and the public. The individual freedom of expression is cut down by laws and regulations.I had been told that my country was rich, people are nice and kind. 

 I have been part of this "Utopia" for my whole life, unable to escape. Arts is my salvation and through them, I was able to bring my own Utopia into existance.